I'll be okay.

It’s pathetic how much I like you after these years. We have never been together and you have never liked me, but we use to be the three of us. Then I moved & I hate it and I miss being able to see his face and her face everyday & play together. But for some odd reason, I cannot get you off my mind. We have a lot in common that you don’t notice. People use to say we argue all the time like an old married couple and in advisory when we don’t agree about something we just bicker. We don’t get mad at each other but we go back and forth and I just like to be able to get a single hi from you every other day and I just really miss talking to you everyday and I miss talking to her everyday too. I wish I was pretty enough for you. I wish I was good enough for you.
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I wish someone would realize sometime that sometimes I just need someone to talk to. I don’t want you to give me advice but I want someone who’s there that’s willing to listen & tell me it’ll be okay.

I’m only a junior, but I’m afraid of senior year coming because, even though I barely talk to my two childhood best friends, I’m going to miss seeing one that’s already a senior in the halls. The other one is in my advisory but what happens after advisory when were not in high school anymore? It scares me that I’m never going to see them anymore.

I love how my parents totally disregard my feelings on how much of shit they make me feel.

I keep getting more and more fat. I can’t stand it.